Heaven

Once in your life you find someone

Who will turn your world around

Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Baby you're all that I want

When you're lyin' here in my arms

I'm findin' it hard to believe

We're in heaven

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven

Jus wana be happy

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear myself

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Cause I’m just trying to be happy,

Just wanna be happy..

Fake Smile

Telling him I'm fine with a fake smile on my face,

Everything in my life is falling out of place,

The world was full of light,

Now I see everything in black and white.

My heart is hurting it's going to break,

Showing my feelings was a mistake,

You can never feel for me the way I felt for you,

Guess it's never gonna just be "Just us two".

I was fine one day and now I'm breaking,

I'm tired of putting on these smiles that I'm faking.

I tell you I've moved on and I accept it but it's a lie,

Don't want you to feel bad and cry,

No one can see the pain that I'm in,

No one can see the cries for help within.

I've just been pretending that I'm strong,

While deep inside I've been crying all along.

All these feelings I just can't express,

Afraid of showing emotions that I suppress,

I wish I had a friend to tell all that I feel,

Someone who could accept me and all what I reveal.

I'll handle it all my way,

Living my life from each day,

I'll get over it in a while,

That's why I'm putting on this fake smile

He loves me NOT

I catch my breath

When I look at you

Heart skips a beat

I stop moving too.

You look at her

Stop and stare

Don't see me

Don't even care

I should hate you

I shouldn't love you

But I do

My only wish

Is that you'd love me too

It's becoming more evident

Much more obvious to me

I thought much more of you

Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake

Letting myself think you cared

Was I just your marionette

With heartstrings open and bared

On my heartstings you played

Each left with a loving memory

Yet I still have those questions

Do you ever think about me ??

Someday

Someday I will be able to look at you and feel nothing at all

Someday I will be able to say I loved you

Someday tears wont fill my eyes

and your words wont fill my headS

omeday I will be over you

Someday I will not think about what happened between us

And that someday.. is Today

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

Fear

I’m trying not to fall in love again

Been hurt once and can still remember the pain

Struggled all the way to stay sane

Fought thru’ despair to push away the rain

For the sun to emerge and brighter days to reign

No more love but a life that was simple and plain.
Then you appeared and told me I have everything to gain

Because you love me and your love will remain

I want to trust you and let my heart attain

A kind of happiness with you that can sustain

Thru’ all the ups and downs, no matter the strain

But it’s hard to let go of this fear that all would be in vain.

Crush on YOU

I want to write a note, but don't know what to say.

I wonder how you would act if I approached you in such a way.

I try my best not to stare or stutter when you come around.

I'm afraid that if I talk to you, you're gonna put me down.

I admire everything about you, from your eyes to your smile.

I guess that I'll sit back and just wait for a while.

Your caramel skin, your luscious lips, your muscle filled arms.

If you were magic I'd buy a locket and make you my lucky charm.

I guess that this is silly because it's just a crush.

Now every time I see you, my body turns to mush.

I can't believe I'm acting this way I'm almost twenty-two.

Oh well, too bad, I just don't care because I'm feeling you.

Im Sorry

I'm sorry for everything you've been through

It must've been very hard on you

I'm sorry for all that's been said and done

I was the moon, you were the sun

I'm sorry for not making everything right

But the situation I was in, was very tight

I'm sorry for not lending you a hand

If only I could be a better friend

I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't care

Lucky for you, your special- someone was there

I'm sorry for breaking your heart

For forgiveness, where do I start?

I keep waiting for the phone to ring

Yet I know it won't be you;

I try to fill my life with busyness

Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us

And all our dreams and plans;

How could you turn and walk away

As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you ever even miss me

Don't you long to caress my face;

How could you forget so easily?

And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again

To see the laughter in your eyes;

But I guess the joke's on me

And Oh! Was I surprised!

All Alone

Looking out the window,

I see cloudy skies,

Not a single star shines.

A cold air blows,

Sends chills upon my spine.

I see lights from a distance

Creating shadows.

All alone I stand by my window

Awaiting the light of day...

Moving On..

If I’d never met you,

wouldn’t feel the pain

Of losing your sweet love;

I wouldn’t feel insane.

But if I’d never met you,

wouldn’t know the pleasure

Of ecstasy’s warm gifts

And memories to treasure.

Now moving on with life,

I force a wistful grin,

Questioning what went wrong

And wondering what might have been.

Love or Lust ?

What is this feeling I have?

I seem to love you

But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you

Or maybe just without anyone

I think about you all the time

But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice

And I would die to hear your laugh

But is this love

Or merely lust?