Love

Many people often wonder.. whats love? how does it feel? when do u kno ur in love?

I used to think the same.. untill 1 n half year back... now i kno what love is.. and how it feels..

and trust me.. u wont kno it till u experience it.. words are not enough to describe that feeling...

Yes.. I truly believe now.. that i was in love.. and i still love that one boy.. who now.. has another girlfriend.. but deep inside my heart... I know hes mine..

My friends tell me im wasting my time.. Maybe I am.. But I love him.. :-)

I wish I could be with him again like before.. but he doesnt want me anymore

I cant picture myself with another boy.. Its been 1 n half year since we broke up.. and I still cant forget the memories..

There are so many things I wish I could do..

Life has just changed for me.. ever since I've started working..

No parties.. no fun.. no friends.. no love..

I want to re-live my past..

Sometimes I wish life had a rewind button.. :-D

Is everyones life so complicated? 

Time after time..

If you're lost you can look.. you will find me..
time after time..

If you fall, I will catch you.. I'll be waiting..
time after time..




I can see your happy with someone else now.. Im happy for you..
But i'll always love you..
Wish you knew..

Sleepless again..

its 3am again.. im laying on my bed like every night.. thinking about him.. thinking whether i still have a chance.. would he come back? should i just wait? or should i move on? does he think of me the way i think of him? if he did he would call, wouldnt he? is he testing me? whether i would wait or not? or has he forgotten me? is it really over? i cant think straight.. im lost.. i wish someone would come find me.. so many questions in my head.. no answers.. all i know is that i love u carl.. n i wish u loved me too..

Hard to say goodbye

Sitting alone and silently
I recall a special part of my life
That part came unexpectedly
And lasted only for a while.
My life has been quite and peaceful
Until that unforgettable moment
You came like a silhouette of my soul
Then you walked right through my heart.
Everyday was a picture of happiness
There's no hint of loneliness
Everything was wonderful
Because I spent it with you.
But then, as time goes by
Feelings begin to fade away
Tears fall down one by one
And it kills me to say goodbye.
Every time my mind says move on
my heart says hold on
So many questions inside my head
But the answers are all up to you.
Loving someone like you
Without boundaries
Makes me think deeply again,
Why, Why it has to be you?

It feels so different being here,

I was so used to being next to you,

Life for me is not the same,

There's no one to turn to.

I don't know why I let it go too far,

Starting over - it's so hard.

Seems like everywhere I try to go,

I keep thinking of you.

I just had a wake up call,

Wishing that I never let you fall,

Baby you are not to blame at all.

when I'm the one that pushed you away.

Baby if you knew I cared,

You'd have never went nowhere..

What did I do??? :-( Its over

I feel so stupid. Maybe one of the biggest mistakes of my life.. I Loved him so much yet I broke up.. saying I needed space.. He tried coming back to me for months but I just ignored him.. I guess I wanted the attention.. And then one day.. he just stopped.. calling, texting, turning up at my house randomly.. everything stopped.. I thought he was trying to get my attention.. So i dint react.. But then it had been a while n no contact from him.. So I called him.. and sent him texts.. But I guess he had moved on.. and I was too late.. I realised my mistake.. I said I was sorry and wanted him back.. he said he dint want to keep any relation with me anymore..

Yea.. I had done a mistake.. a big one.. but it just happened.. now its all gone..

Hes happy I guess.. atleast he says he is.. he doesnt even contact me.. I see his pictures on facebook.. hes made new friends.. guys n girls too.. he looks happy in them.. Im happy for him..

But I cant help but sit and cry everyday about it.. I wish I could go back in time.. and change things..

What a fool I had been..

I dont know what to do anymore..

I promised I wouldnt contact him as he felt disturbed whenever I did.. I dont want to ruin his career which has just blossomed..

I wish he knew how much I really loved him.. I guess he thinks its all fake..

He thinks ive cheated on him.. Cos I was with another guy one day when he came to see me.. I would have thought the same if I were in his place.. but it wasnt what it looked like.. never judge a book by its cover they say?? isnt it.. but he says he believes what he sees..

Im still with that other guy.. But hes my friend..

A good friend.. who has supported me in my worries.. thats all..

I feel lost.. the one guy who loved me like mad.. now hates me.. and its all my fault..

I try to be happy.. I smile everyday.. and at nights I just cant sleep cos thats the only time i get alone to myself.. and all I can do is think about him..

I wish he comes back to me one day.. but I guess Im asking for too much..

Its over.. forever

Emptiness

When the darkness comes

I must wait it out alone

For the road that I’ve chosen

Is one that no one will follow

It is a darkness filled with silence

Unbroken for what seems like eternity

It is a night that never breaks

Awaiting a dawn that may never come

I have no strength for this road

And the ones that I depend on dare not follow

Any screams I shall make

Will be swallowed up and heard by no one

For the darkness is truly vast Here all joy is sucked out

And replaced with grief

Companionship is removed

And the world is filled with loneliness