Heaven

Once in your life you find someone

Who will turn your world around

Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Baby you're all that I want

When you're lyin' here in my arms

I'm findin' it hard to believe

We're in heaven

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven

Jus wana be happy

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear myself

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Cause I’m just trying to be happy,

Just wanna be happy..

Fake Smile

Telling him I'm fine with a fake smile on my face,

Everything in my life is falling out of place,

The world was full of light,

Now I see everything in black and white.

My heart is hurting it's going to break,

Showing my feelings was a mistake,

You can never feel for me the way I felt for you,

Guess it's never gonna just be "Just us two".

I was fine one day and now I'm breaking,

I'm tired of putting on these smiles that I'm faking.

I tell you I've moved on and I accept it but it's a lie,

Don't want you to feel bad and cry,

No one can see the pain that I'm in,

No one can see the cries for help within.

I've just been pretending that I'm strong,

While deep inside I've been crying all along.

All these feelings I just can't express,

Afraid of showing emotions that I suppress,

I wish I had a friend to tell all that I feel,

Someone who could accept me and all what I reveal.

I'll handle it all my way,

Living my life from each day,

I'll get over it in a while,

That's why I'm putting on this fake smile

He loves me NOT

I catch my breath

When I look at you

Heart skips a beat

I stop moving too.

You look at her

Stop and stare

Don't see me

Don't even care

I should hate you

I shouldn't love you

But I do

My only wish

Is that you'd love me too

It's becoming more evident

Much more obvious to me

I thought much more of you

Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake

Letting myself think you cared

Was I just your marionette

With heartstrings open and bared

On my heartstings you played

Each left with a loving memory

Yet I still have those questions

Do you ever think about me ??

Someday

Someday I will be able to look at you and feel nothing at all

Someday I will be able to say I loved you

Someday tears wont fill my eyes

and your words wont fill my headS

omeday I will be over you

Someday I will not think about what happened between us

And that someday.. is Today

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

Fear

I’m trying not to fall in love again

Been hurt once and can still remember the pain

Struggled all the way to stay sane

Fought thru’ despair to push away the rain

For the sun to emerge and brighter days to reign

No more love but a life that was simple and plain.
Then you appeared and told me I have everything to gain

Because you love me and your love will remain

I want to trust you and let my heart attain

A kind of happiness with you that can sustain

Thru’ all the ups and downs, no matter the strain

But it’s hard to let go of this fear that all would be in vain.

Crush on YOU

I want to write a note, but don't know what to say.

I wonder how you would act if I approached you in such a way.

I try my best not to stare or stutter when you come around.

I'm afraid that if I talk to you, you're gonna put me down.

I admire everything about you, from your eyes to your smile.

I guess that I'll sit back and just wait for a while.

Your caramel skin, your luscious lips, your muscle filled arms.

If you were magic I'd buy a locket and make you my lucky charm.

I guess that this is silly because it's just a crush.

Now every time I see you, my body turns to mush.

I can't believe I'm acting this way I'm almost twenty-two.

Oh well, too bad, I just don't care because I'm feeling you.

Im Sorry

I'm sorry for everything you've been through

It must've been very hard on you

I'm sorry for all that's been said and done

I was the moon, you were the sun

I'm sorry for not making everything right

But the situation I was in, was very tight

I'm sorry for not lending you a hand

If only I could be a better friend

I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't care

Lucky for you, your special- someone was there

I'm sorry for breaking your heart

For forgiveness, where do I start?

I keep waiting for the phone to ring

Yet I know it won't be you;

I try to fill my life with busyness

Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us

And all our dreams and plans;

How could you turn and walk away

As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you ever even miss me

Don't you long to caress my face;

How could you forget so easily?

And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again

To see the laughter in your eyes;

But I guess the joke's on me

And Oh! Was I surprised!

All Alone

Looking out the window,

I see cloudy skies,

Not a single star shines.

A cold air blows,

Sends chills upon my spine.

I see lights from a distance

Creating shadows.

All alone I stand by my window

Awaiting the light of day...

Moving On..

If I’d never met you,

wouldn’t feel the pain

Of losing your sweet love;

I wouldn’t feel insane.

But if I’d never met you,

wouldn’t know the pleasure

Of ecstasy’s warm gifts

And memories to treasure.

Now moving on with life,

I force a wistful grin,

Questioning what went wrong

And wondering what might have been.

Love or Lust ?

What is this feeling I have?

I seem to love you

But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you

Or maybe just without anyone

I think about you all the time

But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice

And I would die to hear your laugh

But is this love

Or merely lust?

Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away

You don't feel me here anymore

Fading away..

Funny how friends say forever,

people never seem to stay together.

You told me not to worry,

told me not to cry,

you said we were best friends, it was a lie.

I'm here still pretending not to care,

pretending I don't notice your never there.

To have a bond like we did was amazing,

but you picked a boy over that, over me, just replacing.

You hurt me so bad you will never know,

and the pain I keep inside I will never show.

You'd probably see it if you just tried,

and know how many nights I have cried.

But don't worry I'll be fine,

I'm not the one who left all my friends behind

Broken Heart

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I love has gone away?
My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we've shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.
My dreams are filled with your soft gentle kiss,
I wake and cry for all that I miss.
How do I mend a broken heart,
when my one true love and I are apart?
My heart knows to love only you,
it won't let go, what do I do?
Our moments together were precious and few,
but I cherished them all more than you knew.
I love you my angel and always will,
I loved you then and I love you still.

To My Best Friend

This is for u Saa.. my BFF!

We met upon the internet,

My heart you did not have yet.

And now I sit and wait each day,

to talk to you and know what you would say.

Of laughter, love and tears,

You have washed away all my fears.

To be my friend and see so deep,

I now know why I don't get much sleep.

I have waited through all these years,

To find something to hold so dear.

And now I know I'll never be Blue,

For I have found a true friend in you.

Hot Chocolate Fudge Pie

Since Im in the mood of chocolates.. heres another one!!

A sinfully delicious hot fudge pie with pecans...

Ingredients:

1/2 cup butter
3 squares (1 ounce each) unsweetened chocolate
1 1/4 cups sugar
1/4 cup flour
a pinch of salt
1/4 teaspoon vanilla
3 large eggs
1/4 cup chopped pecans and other nuts

Method:

Melt butter and chocolate in double boiler; beat in sugar. Add in flour and salt. Add vanilla. Beat eggs; Add pecans and other nuts to the chocolate mixture. Grease a nice pie dish and pour the mixture in. Bake at 350° for 20 to 30 minutes. Center of the chocolate pie should still be moist when done. Serve this fudge pie warm with ice cream.

Easy & simple to make!

oOoOoOoOo Chocolates!!!

I have made chocolates with quite a few recipes – from my mother, my friends, relatives, books, magazines etc. But none had come out as exotic as the ones I made a couple of months back. O just randomly tried something.. was trying to get creative I suppose.. and it turned out awesome!! I do have a weakness for Chocolates and this one just melted in my mouth. I got the recipe written down in my diary and I thought I will share this with all those chocolate lovers.
Here We Go !

INGREDIENTS

Sugar………………………………1 Cup

Milk Powder…………………… 1 Cup
(Amulya)

Butter……………………………3/4 Cup

Cocoa Powder………………...3/4 Cup

METHOD

Melt the sugar to make a syrup –One string consistency.Not a feeble string that breaks immediately, but sticky. Remove from fire. Add the butter and stir till the butter completely dissolves. Blend Cocoa powder and milk powder well and mix this with the sugar syrup & butter combo and keep stirring till it becomes thick. Empty on to a greased plate. Let it cool. Slice into pieces and refrigerate.
Your soft exotic chocolates are ready !! Those of you who love nuts, can chop some cashews and almonds into the mixture or press them into each chocolate piece

If you want to make shapes just pour the mix into molds( dont forget to grease it well.. !! )

And there its ready!! all yummy & tasty!! Enjoy..

The Man He Killed

Had he and I but met By some old ancient
inn,
We should have set us down to wet
Right many a nipperkin!

But ranged as infantry,
And staring face to face,
I shot at him as he at me,
And killed him in his place.

I shot him dead because--
Because he was my foe,
Just so: my foe of course he was;
That's clear enough;
although

He thought he'd 'list,
perhaps,
Off-hand like--just as I--
Was out of work--had sold his
traps--
No other reason why.

Yes; quaint and curious war
is!
You shoot a fellow down
You'd treat, if met where any bar
is,
Or help to half a crown

Cant let him go..

This lie's become a part of me

For months, I've played this game

Acting like it doesn't hurt

Each time I hear his name

Ignoring what's inside of me

Pretending I've moved on

As if the feelings I once had

For him are somehow gone

Spending each and every day

With happiness and laughs

Forgetting all our memories

Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw him

For the first time since he left

My heart stopped for a moment

I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me

As the tears started to flow

That even after all this time

I just can't let him go..

Silent tears

A thunderous silence
Breaks through my thoughts.
What was once many great ideas
Is now a triumph, lost.

Baffling words tumble through my mind.
Reflections of darkness hover.
A disturbing peacefulness beckons to me,
And inside myself, I take cover.

What would it be like to stay there forever?
To be lost in all my cares?
From the inside, looking out -I cry silent tears

True Love..

Feel the pressure and the pain,

Memories of happiness slain,

Frozen thoughts, long since lost

I guess everything comes at a cost.

True love is a lie,

Spoken words to make you cry,

An empty promise ends with a broken heart,

It’s true, we’re better off apart.

Salty tears fall down my face,

Another lie, another disgrace,

Heart more broken then before,

Left barely beating on the floor.

A broken heart that you can’t mend,

No advice left to recommend.

True love is a lie,

Spoken words to make you cry,

An empty promise ends with a broken heart,

It’s true, we’re better off apart.

Speacial Thanks to NixBlaque

The Rain..

The rain it drums a cruel
crescendo,

It's like viewing
the mirror of my soul.

It mimics my essence and saddens
my hope,

In a life I can no longer
control.

Upon every surface it beats, it
hammers home,

The horrors of life when you
live it alone.

The rain dives into haunting
requiem,

As the ghosts of my past
are calling.

With each drop that laments upon
the ground,

It sets upon
my spirit a mauling.

The sound of sorrow is
surrounding me,

For all the pain that I did
for-see.

The rain sounds like the ruins of the
past,
I hear only the sound of
torment.
It grumbles, sulks and whispers

Of the life I am left to
lament.

The sound of rain is
deafening,
The shout of life that only
stings