Love

Many people often wonder.. whats love? how does it feel? when do u kno ur in love?

I used to think the same.. untill 1 n half year back... now i kno what love is.. and how it feels..

and trust me.. u wont kno it till u experience it.. words are not enough to describe that feeling...

Yes.. I truly believe now.. that i was in love.. and i still love that one boy.. who now.. has another girlfriend.. but deep inside my heart... I know hes mine..

My friends tell me im wasting my time.. Maybe I am.. But I love him.. :-)

I wish I could be with him again like before.. but he doesnt want me anymore

I cant picture myself with another boy.. Its been 1 n half year since we broke up.. and I still cant forget the memories..

There are so many things I wish I could do..

Life has just changed for me.. ever since I've started working..

No parties.. no fun.. no friends.. no love..

I want to re-live my past..

Sometimes I wish life had a rewind button.. :-D

Is everyones life so complicated? 

Time after time..

If you're lost you can look.. you will find me..
time after time..

If you fall, I will catch you.. I'll be waiting..
time after time..




I can see your happy with someone else now.. Im happy for you..
But i'll always love you..
Wish you knew..

Sleepless again..

its 3am again.. im laying on my bed like every night.. thinking about him.. thinking whether i still have a chance.. would he come back? should i just wait? or should i move on? does he think of me the way i think of him? if he did he would call, wouldnt he? is he testing me? whether i would wait or not? or has he forgotten me? is it really over? i cant think straight.. im lost.. i wish someone would come find me.. so many questions in my head.. no answers.. all i know is that i love u carl.. n i wish u loved me too..

Hard to say goodbye

Sitting alone and silently
I recall a special part of my life
That part came unexpectedly
And lasted only for a while.
My life has been quite and peaceful
Until that unforgettable moment
You came like a silhouette of my soul
Then you walked right through my heart.
Everyday was a picture of happiness
There's no hint of loneliness
Everything was wonderful
Because I spent it with you.
But then, as time goes by
Feelings begin to fade away
Tears fall down one by one
And it kills me to say goodbye.
Every time my mind says move on
my heart says hold on
So many questions inside my head
But the answers are all up to you.
Loving someone like you
Without boundaries
Makes me think deeply again,
Why, Why it has to be you?

It feels so different being here,

I was so used to being next to you,

Life for me is not the same,

There's no one to turn to.

I don't know why I let it go too far,

Starting over - it's so hard.

Seems like everywhere I try to go,

I keep thinking of you.

I just had a wake up call,

Wishing that I never let you fall,

Baby you are not to blame at all.

when I'm the one that pushed you away.

Baby if you knew I cared,

You'd have never went nowhere..

What did I do??? :-( Its over

I feel so stupid. Maybe one of the biggest mistakes of my life.. I Loved him so much yet I broke up.. saying I needed space.. He tried coming back to me for months but I just ignored him.. I guess I wanted the attention.. And then one day.. he just stopped.. calling, texting, turning up at my house randomly.. everything stopped.. I thought he was trying to get my attention.. So i dint react.. But then it had been a while n no contact from him.. So I called him.. and sent him texts.. But I guess he had moved on.. and I was too late.. I realised my mistake.. I said I was sorry and wanted him back.. he said he dint want to keep any relation with me anymore..

Yea.. I had done a mistake.. a big one.. but it just happened.. now its all gone..

Hes happy I guess.. atleast he says he is.. he doesnt even contact me.. I see his pictures on facebook.. hes made new friends.. guys n girls too.. he looks happy in them.. Im happy for him..

But I cant help but sit and cry everyday about it.. I wish I could go back in time.. and change things..

What a fool I had been..

I dont know what to do anymore..

I promised I wouldnt contact him as he felt disturbed whenever I did.. I dont want to ruin his career which has just blossomed..

I wish he knew how much I really loved him.. I guess he thinks its all fake..

He thinks ive cheated on him.. Cos I was with another guy one day when he came to see me.. I would have thought the same if I were in his place.. but it wasnt what it looked like.. never judge a book by its cover they say?? isnt it.. but he says he believes what he sees..

Im still with that other guy.. But hes my friend..

A good friend.. who has supported me in my worries.. thats all..

I feel lost.. the one guy who loved me like mad.. now hates me.. and its all my fault..

I try to be happy.. I smile everyday.. and at nights I just cant sleep cos thats the only time i get alone to myself.. and all I can do is think about him..

I wish he comes back to me one day.. but I guess Im asking for too much..

Its over.. forever

Emptiness

When the darkness comes

I must wait it out alone

For the road that I’ve chosen

Is one that no one will follow

It is a darkness filled with silence

Unbroken for what seems like eternity

It is a night that never breaks

Awaiting a dawn that may never come

I have no strength for this road

And the ones that I depend on dare not follow

Any screams I shall make

Will be swallowed up and heard by no one

For the darkness is truly vast Here all joy is sucked out

And replaced with grief

Companionship is removed

And the world is filled with loneliness

I Miss You

Is it possible

That someone like you

Could complete me?

You're the only one I want

The only one I think about

The only one I truly love

You've treated me wrong sometime

sAs I've done the same

But everyone makes mistakes

And your not one of mine

Be with me for the rest of time

I'll give you my heart

And you give me your mind

...

I thought we would be together for so long

You were so sweet and charming with you words you said.

But something happened I don't know what went wrong

I cried so hard just lying in my bed.

I say I am over you but I really know

I can't forget you and I never will.

I want you back and I love you so.

You don't even care and don't even know.

I guess we'll never be together again like I had wished.

I'll never forget you and the times we had.

The places we went and when we kissed.

I don't hate you and I am not pissed.

I just miss you so but I guess you'll never know.

Heaven

Once in your life you find someone

Who will turn your world around

Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Baby you're all that I want

When you're lyin' here in my arms

I'm findin' it hard to believe

We're in heaven

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven

Jus wana be happy

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear myself

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Cause I’m just trying to be happy,

Just wanna be happy..

Fake Smile

Telling him I'm fine with a fake smile on my face,

Everything in my life is falling out of place,

The world was full of light,

Now I see everything in black and white.

My heart is hurting it's going to break,

Showing my feelings was a mistake,

You can never feel for me the way I felt for you,

Guess it's never gonna just be "Just us two".

I was fine one day and now I'm breaking,

I'm tired of putting on these smiles that I'm faking.

I tell you I've moved on and I accept it but it's a lie,

Don't want you to feel bad and cry,

No one can see the pain that I'm in,

No one can see the cries for help within.

I've just been pretending that I'm strong,

While deep inside I've been crying all along.

All these feelings I just can't express,

Afraid of showing emotions that I suppress,

I wish I had a friend to tell all that I feel,

Someone who could accept me and all what I reveal.

I'll handle it all my way,

Living my life from each day,

I'll get over it in a while,

That's why I'm putting on this fake smile

He loves me NOT

I catch my breath

When I look at you

Heart skips a beat

I stop moving too.

You look at her

Stop and stare

Don't see me

Don't even care

I should hate you

I shouldn't love you

But I do

My only wish

Is that you'd love me too

It's becoming more evident

Much more obvious to me

I thought much more of you

Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake

Letting myself think you cared

Was I just your marionette

With heartstrings open and bared

On my heartstings you played

Each left with a loving memory

Yet I still have those questions

Do you ever think about me ??

Someday

Someday I will be able to look at you and feel nothing at all

Someday I will be able to say I loved you

Someday tears wont fill my eyes

and your words wont fill my headS

omeday I will be over you

Someday I will not think about what happened between us

And that someday.. is Today

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

Fear

I’m trying not to fall in love again

Been hurt once and can still remember the pain

Struggled all the way to stay sane

Fought thru’ despair to push away the rain

For the sun to emerge and brighter days to reign

No more love but a life that was simple and plain.
Then you appeared and told me I have everything to gain

Because you love me and your love will remain

I want to trust you and let my heart attain

A kind of happiness with you that can sustain

Thru’ all the ups and downs, no matter the strain

But it’s hard to let go of this fear that all would be in vain.

Crush on YOU

I want to write a note, but don't know what to say.

I wonder how you would act if I approached you in such a way.

I try my best not to stare or stutter when you come around.

I'm afraid that if I talk to you, you're gonna put me down.

I admire everything about you, from your eyes to your smile.

I guess that I'll sit back and just wait for a while.

Your caramel skin, your luscious lips, your muscle filled arms.

If you were magic I'd buy a locket and make you my lucky charm.

I guess that this is silly because it's just a crush.

Now every time I see you, my body turns to mush.

I can't believe I'm acting this way I'm almost twenty-two.

Oh well, too bad, I just don't care because I'm feeling you.

Im Sorry

I'm sorry for everything you've been through

It must've been very hard on you

I'm sorry for all that's been said and done

I was the moon, you were the sun

I'm sorry for not making everything right

But the situation I was in, was very tight

I'm sorry for not lending you a hand

If only I could be a better friend

I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't care

Lucky for you, your special- someone was there

I'm sorry for breaking your heart

For forgiveness, where do I start?